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The whole week was
traumatic
stressful
disturbing
hate work:P

that i really wanna write sth good abt my life..so that i feel good:P so..Phew!!!!

Changed my templates and al :P lot of new stuffs on hand yea, fancy templates and numerous options to decorate ur blog and too in a much much easier n a friendly way than earlier ones..wooo...nice :)

wanted to do sth diff as am stuck with work everyday :( and so all tis blogging :) and giving a new look to my blog:) after all whiling away time:P

2010

Though I mis ‘d to write a blog on 2009..it was indeed a good yr though not a good one for blogging :P 2009 was reasonably a rocking one when it came to my career..Learnt loads of stuff on a technical note.. proved to be so responsible which am def not one at home (happy my mom doesn read blogs:P) but taken a resolution of being responsible even at home :)

Big event was my bro s wedding..woah!! the best..had sooper dooper fun..taken my frnds..so added excitement :) actually totally blank of wat happened in the whole of 2009 I remember so vaguely.. yea..my birthday!! Always the best day of any year!!felt like a princess everwher..:)had a beautiful cubicle decoration by my peers..jus felt on cloud 9 cos I was so popular in my proj..;) hahahaha true ya…:P things dint go my way towards the end of 2009..dont know wy..but it jus dint go my way :P one yr I actually wanna forget..the fact is everyone forgets every other yr :P

2010 did not kick of well…lot of confusions..felt so empty al of sudden!!:( Went on a pilgrimage to pazhani!!(n i did not go for the pilgrimage jus cos i was in confusion it jus happened al of a sudden:P) 165 kms by walk.. Around 5-6 days.OMG!!Seriously OMG muruga!! Became such a massive devotee of him..i have never been so devotional al my life..Actually speaking the biggest turning point of my life wud be this pilgrimage..i was one with nature..i am one person who can never even bare the pain of a pin prick but then it was so much of pain ..i cried so much!! But then finally I was so so so happy when I completed the whole thing successfully. Met such lovely beautiful ppl who literally dragged me al the way and made my trip a whole success: P huge thx!! I have been thinking abt takin up tis pilgrimage again..plannin..let me see hw it goes..this pilgrimage gave me an opportunity to spend a lot of time with my anna after school days..just a remarkable part of 2010!!!:)

Then life was as usual..Shuttling between work, home and of curz the fun and entertainment..lot of beautiful things happening :) al smiles and happiness around..mid way of 2010 has geared up!!! back on track!! yehhhh!!! so far so goooood!!!:)

hiccups makes life interesting..so is my life nw :)

Expectations

Expectations :) !!! Actually an interesting and in my perspective, a tricky thing!!Well u get what u expect then its interesting if u don’t then its tricky: P I have found it interesting many a times and tricky too.. My suggestion wud be don’t set ur expectation high when its comes to relationships..Because disappointments are diff to handle in relationships..But u can always argue that there s nothing high or low in expectations..still u can have a control over ur expectations..tats my point…and be practical abt ur expectations..

And expectations are too damn high wen u’re a girl (all gals pls excuse me..its a fact though :P) I can challenge with 1000 examples :P and am no different ;) I have tons of expectation though I write like Ms.Perfect.. no way .. am not even close to it..hw much ever I hit the rock bottom of disappointments I jus don’t stop expecting out of life nor out of relationships !!!!:P But u always want to change or at least realize the same..n happy tat I fall in the latter:) jus realizations!!!Tuf to change though :P

There has to be expectations in a relationship else it wudn be a natural one..:) Expectations lead to possessiveness and which means they want the other person that badly and which is a positive sign for any love!!! Long live all love with expectations :)

n thx to my friend with whom I had an argument kind of a thing on expectations and stuffs and it turned out to be a blog :P long time since I posted one..if u ‘d read my other blogs ..i ‘m no more on bench and started working so sincerely :P for the past 2 yrs :) :P and hence such a big delay for a new blog though a pretty short one.. ;)

2008

2008- In my life was a blend of lazy days and serious hard work. The first six months went away whining about my career as I was theoretically unemployed, though employed technically: P I just hate to be idle. I went through the toughest stage of 2008 in those four months. Nothing was going my way. All I had to do was to eat, sleep, wake up, and cry about my unemployment. I go restless in such a situation and it was my parents and friends who boosted up my confidence, a big thanks for all those support without them I don’t think I would have crossed the stage. My elder brother gave me few ideas to keep myself engaged. In that list was the idea of learning embroidery. I had an amazing time learning it and very interesting hobby. I even went to the extent of starting a business with a small capital. But before I could execute the idea, I was FINALLY allocated to a project in my company. Guess the CEO of the company heard my curses ;) anyhow, I was happy that I will be occupied for the rest of the year and that’s what happened. Then my life was intruded with the path of serious hard work of the year 2008. I loved my job except for waking up at 5 in the morning. Last six months was pretty good part of this year. My work kept me busy and then my regular happy weekends. I made a bunch of new super friends this year, surprisingly at office. Also, I came across a couple of level headed people at my office who happen to join my list of admiration. On the par side was going on my preparation for my MBA entrances, but no big improvement this year, except that I applied for a lot colleges (my account balance is draining :(!!) Hoping to join any college so that I can run away from this company: D 2008 also marked the beginning of me continue in being a vegetarian. Kept up the resolution I took at the end of 2007 and quiet satisfied in maintaining it :) which is forcing me take another in 2009. Actually over the year I realized that I have become a major spend thrift. I even took steps to save my money but haven really tasted success in that. Planning to work more on it this year, like having an excel sheet where I can maintain my accounts, lets c how it goes, will surely write a blog if I achieve it. (After all something to write about ;)) and it was also a very happy year for my family, like, my bro’s engagement, a big event it was for my family in 2008 :) waiting for it. 2008 was a bunch of moments for me too. I jus wish I could capture every moment and make a collage of it. The best of 2008 was October 28th :)Hoping for a wonderful 2009 ahead. Wish everyone a prosperous and happy 2009.2008

Salute the Heores!!

First of all am ashamed of the politicians of this country, the government of this country for putting the country under siege. I was frozen in shock when I heard the news about terrorists attack in Mumbai at the major posh places like The Taj Mehel Hotel, Oberoi/Trident and the jewish apartment in The Nariman House and in that rickety situation, I immediately called my brother who’s working in Mumbai to make sure he was fine and was happy further on to hear that he had left to Kolkata that nite, for a transaction. For a city like Mumbai, which is so active and lively when it comes to work or be it anything, this must be traumatic. It's almost like the city that never sleeps has gone into deep slumber. Though they were many blasts that happens almost every one or two years, to my perception this will remain a black day, War on Mumbai. If the government really wishes to do something to the innocent public, they should look at this issue as a serious one and work their heads on for tightening the security. Despite the security, around 20 terrorists have managed to enter the city and blew it to ashes. Where is the nation heading?? What kind of country are we living in? When a family decides to have a happy dinner out at a restaurant, are they required to be extra cautious of what is gonna happen? Atrocious. If the government is not even in a position to provide the basic security to the people, then whats the point on relying on them?? A two year old baby is pushed to orphanage, as his parents and grandparents are shot dead at The Nariman House. The most heart breaking was that, today was the child's birthday. The government need not gift him though. All what politicians can do is to blame each other on such a crisis. They cannot even stand united, when there is in need of it. The opposition and the ruling party came in separately to convey their commiseration. What more can we expect out of these politicians. As the situation ran out of control, the centre pulled in the National Security Guard (NSG) and the army. Six army columns were pressed into action apart from 200 NSG personnel. Those who have always been the heroes of the nation led from the front, evacuating 200 persons out of the Taj Hotel and 70 out of Oberoi/Trident Hotel. Also they were combating inside the hotel in flushing out the terrorists. All these NGS and army are from different parts of the country, now where is Raj Thackeray?? To him, a team of 6 bodyguards from South Africa who have come here on a vacation, was in the in a restaurant in the Taj hotel and drinking soup at the top of the hotel. The moment they heard the gun fire, they immediately reacted and helped in evacuating 150 people who were there in the vicinity. The guards, armed only with knives and meat cleavers, helped other hotel guests to safety down a fire escape. They carried a traumatised old woman in a chair down 25 flights of stairs. I was moved by their wonderful gesture. Hats off heroes!! And not to forget the heroes of our own country, many who have lost their lives for this nation. My heartfelt thanks, to army and the NSG, for such a wonderful effort and also, my deepest condolences to those families for an indispensable loss. 12 policemen were killed, including Hemant Karkare, chief of the police anti-terrorist squad in Mumbai, who was recently blamed by Narendar Modi for his performace. May, the dead rest in peace. Politicians have to realize that its not the time to blame each other and it’s the time to understand the situation and act as one nation. By understanding it doesn’t mean that u have to declare a bandh, which is appallingly so insignificant. Tonite we owe a great deal to the heroes of our nation for an unforgettable gesture in saving hundred of lives risking their own life. Hats off!! Enough is enough. May, the city of Mumbai rest in peace.

Three mistakes of my life!!

Like any even I had huge dreams of a big sophisticated white collar job. When I completed my graduation, the hype was to join an IT firm. I was never interested in computer and stuffs, my ambition was to become a business entrepreneur. So took up a crash course in T.I.M.E for CAT and started off with a spirited preparation. Then came the tragic end, I had placements at my college during my final year of graduation. Unfortunately, I got selected in the very first company. The first mistake of my life is to have attended the placements continued by the lost of interest in CAT as I was in the mind set of taking up the job and gaining experience and then going for an MBA. Later, my first five months in a branded IT company went on well as it was a namesake training. It was pretty similar to college, had loads of fun, teasing and giggling around in gangs, and did nothing during the training. After those blissful days, came the dark period of any IT company, called the Bench. Being on Bench is defined to be sitting idle, filling your attendance sheet and receiving salary every month and the conclusion of those dark days is lack of experience, which in turn affects our resume if we are in the intentions of joining another company. We will get the experience certificate but technically speaking u kno nothing. I was exactly in that state for around ten months. Things switched to the so called colorful days. I got into a project but then the project was in the pipeline and is still expecting confirmation of the project. Ha ha!! A team with project manager, project lead, team members and top of all an onsite coordinator was formed. Joke of the millennium. Ha ha ha!! It’s been a year and a half I joined this company, which I consider to be the second mistake of my life, but still not done anything in favor of them. Am giving my CAT this year also, but what’s the use, my preparation is not up to the mark. Reason being I was forced to come to office and report to my manager of the so existed project. Funny!! Third mistake of my life, In spite of being a biggest loser, I still haven’t left the company. Now even if I want to, it’s too late. With all this recession coming up nothing is guaranteed, whether I will get placed after doing my MBA. In all my life is a total mess as of now. But then, everything is for good. Hoping for a change in the near future.

A Dedication

Today being a Saturday woke up really late with a very happy note because I did something very nice the previous night. There are two little cute pups near my house; it’s just one month old, black in color. Really cute puppies and I admire them at a distance from my bedroom window as they are my biggest fear. People say am very bold and stuffs, but the one little thing am really scared of is dogs. Its kind of a phobia, I should say and actually taking measures to overcome it. So, decided to kick off with the puppies. Asked my mother for a glass of milk, went down, to be noted, boldly ;) kept the bowl a little near the puppies and came off. According to me this is highest I can go, so, applause here :) That’s the reason I got up with a huge smile as though I kept a glass of milk for a lion or tiger: D In spite of it being a Saturday, I dint laze around and waste the day doing nothing. Completed a few very important work which I should have done two weeks back: P but then pats on my back for at least doing it this weekend ;)

Had a pretty good day until I decided to keep milk for those two puppies. Like yesterday, I went down in search of the puppies and the watchman said, a lorry ran over the puppies. I was shocked, awfully shocked. I was not able to move from the place for a minute. I am sort of a person who’s not too emotional when it comes to people whom I really don’t know. I still remember the kumbakonam incident, when I heard the news I really felt bad for those kids but was not moved emotionally or cry my heart out, which my friends actually did. I was actually feeling guilty why dint I cry. Was I stone hearted or something? I don’t really cry for movies which end on a tragedy note. So al of it forced me to think about this issue for a long time. But I don’t know what made me shed tears for those beautiful cute one month old puppies; I jus couldn’t control my tears. May be it could also be the influence of one of my very close friend who loves animals more than anything in this world. I started to feel even worse when their mother dog was searching for her puppies. It was so painful. I went to the place were the watchman buried those pups and prayed that they rest in peace. The mother dog is still searching for them. She is running here and there probing for those dead puppies. I jus wish I had the ability to tell her that they are no more and console her and reduce her pain. This one incident will always make my heart very heavy. Hope for the puppies to rest in peace.